Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in Matt's LiveJournal:

Monday, April 12th, 2004
9:22 pm	AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH do im goin crazy.. i have been for a while now. and im writen it here b/c this is the way i can wine about it without anyone hearing me but i still feel like im gettin it off my chest. the thing is i miss this girl. its pathetic really b/c i nevver had her to begin with. ou might say she lead me on somewhat but now shes not talkin to me the same and her friends are tellin me that shes over it. which sucks b/c she wont tell me that and i keep holding on to it. i truly only like one girl a year. no lie. and this year i got to talk to her for what? a month? all heavy drama and holding back. a true roller coaster with good and bad. and the one thing i asked in it all is that if she got tired of me that she tell me str8 ^. but no... shes apparently over me and on to some other guy with a gay ass name by the way and to selfish to tell me about it. instead i have to hear it from everyone else in the world which breaks my heart. i even asked her. up front and personal. i said hey do you still like me? more than a friend? are you sure? DO NOT LIE!!! and with all that she still said yes but did not take my calls for the next four days and when she does she hangs up sayin "ill call you back" which she never does. what am i a fuckin idiot.... its so ovious take a fuckin hint right? no... i dont give up on people like that. if she would just tell me she was past it i would let it go bgut until then i have to hold on or else im the one that lost the faith if she decides she does like me. THIS SUCKS ASS!!!!! i fuckin quit. comments please? any help at all. Current Mood: aggravated (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:57 am	trust me i wish i had something better to do so i got online because i am board out of my mind and low and behold no one else is on... thats what i get for not goin to church on this beatifull sonday morning. i did get one of those web cam e-mails though... so i spent 25 minutes im'ing them back asking questions..... i wonder if they like getting random dumb ass messages every thirty seconds. to bad she didnt resond.... she was pretty cute. lol. so updateing sincew last entry.... lifes the same with the minor eception that i have a sprained ankle that tends to be a large pain in the ass and a serious strain on my pimp game. wow this is the first time i didnt get even more board by writeing one of these. interesting. holly shit someone just sent me the same webcam again but from a diff screen name. lol. ok now luis is on so im gonna go talk to him. PeAcE!!! im out Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Monday, December 22nd, 2003
7:57 pm	life a bitch and X-mass is just another pinp i only have one day left. YAY. my sis says work has been callin looking for me though. i hope i get fired. time for a new job anyway. you still lovin your job? cant get enough? that a kid. lol. j/p. so yea as soon as i get back my moms whole family will be at my house and when they leave it will be time for bed then when i get up there will be no X-mass because my sis got her car and my mom pay my insurance once. so all im lookin forward to wensday is a big ass lunch at my grandmas. lol. how bout my dad was askin me if i wanted him to use the money for my X-Mass to give to my mom because thats what my sis is doin because my mom got into a car wreck this morning and shes all like things are gonna be really tight for a while. i was like hell fuck no i aint givin her shit. she gave katie alot of shit so katie should give her her X-Mass money but she made me buy my own car pay my own insurance and gas and cover my own ass when i got in a wreck all while forceing me to stay in more than 2 after school activities and a 3.0 GPA while not being allowed to work school days. i say fuck her and let her deal with her own shit. after all thats what she did for me. ill treat her as if she was my own child useing my mother as a prime example of how family should be treated when they are on down times. lol. the funny thing is money has been tight since i was in the sixth grade and shit never changes so i figure no matter wtf i do help or not we are gonna me tight for cash so i might as well spend all i can get my hands on for myself right? anywho i hope my b-day doesnt suck alot of ass. i wanted to plan out his big thing but i didnt have time with goin to my dads and all so yea i guess there is always next year. well damn i ran out of shit to say... thats a first. lol. i guess ill go try to force myself to sleep since no one is ever online for me to talk to anymore. maybe i can sleep throught tomorrow and be on my way home in no time at all. PeAcE!!! Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: NONE (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 7th, 2003
4:57 pm	board as hell... nah that dont mean hard as a board just cuz im on the internet so her we go again. im sittin here bored out of my mind waiting for power point to download onto my computer so i can do this gay ass presentation for english. this past years superbowl sucked ass. this years better be good or im not gonna be a pro football fan. but anyway i still gotta find someone to get my terms from. damn derek brooks is good at football. i forgot about that int he had to win the game last year. so yea i need to get my new member code to adam kelly. if anyone reads this and know how to do that let me know. lol. damn this download is taking forever. even though i havent writin shit its been like20 minutes lol. now i know why i didnt use this journal before. its just as boreing as talkin to yourself in your head. i need to start saving my money again. im broke and i have over $5000 worth of work to do to my car which is not a good thing. well imm go find the paris hilton video. Current Mood: bored Current Music: are you ready for some football (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 6th, 2003
9:36 pm	Im Back BITCHES damn i forgot how to do this shit lol. for a long time i forgot i even had it. but i guess now s as good a time as any to start writein. how bout i had to go to julies house to find out what my name was and then hwo to sign on. aint thata bitch. well this is more than i write in one of ms wades weekly journals so im done now. PeAcE.... P.S.- if your reading this you need a life!!!!! Current Mood: horny Current Music: eminem: im back {bitches... thus the title above} (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 4th, 2003
7:55 pm	wuz up all yall sluts out there.... i finally got one of these fuckin journals. damn why didnt anyone fil me in. well you can expect an entry about every other week b/c im already board of this thing. lol. first things first note to self tomorrow is the first day of hitting on ruth. end note. PeAcE im out!!! (1 Comment |Comment on this)